Thursday, August 19, 2010
Waiting
Wow. So it's been a while since my last post. Sorry, people. Things have been weird. I have been very blessed, but life has been very hectic and stressful. Right now, I am being taught a lesson in patience, and I don't like it. I decided a long time ago to NEVER pray for patience. The only way to truly gain patience is to go through trials you can do nothing about except rely on God to carry you through. Or to not get an answer you want, but not to truly get a "no." That's where I am now. Lots of ideas swirling around in my head about what I want to do or what I feel led to do, but no clear direction on most issues even though I've been praying and have had others praying. But I'm getting little pointers here and there. I know God is listening. And He's with me even if I'm not enjoying His trickling responses. I truly believe there's a reason for it. This must be the pace God wants for me right now. I just need to keep praying for direction, and it will come.
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I am going through the same thing you are going through right now too. Exactly the same thing. I feel that I've been on the waiting list for a looooong time to the point I think God is just giving me a no. But he's not and I'm still standing on my blessings, even though it kills me for waiting and my patience sometimes lacks and gains... it's painful.
It definitely can be painful, but that's why God has given us fellowship with other Christians. We have to lean on each other. Thanks for sharing your struggle too!
I don't know where you are at with this right now, because it's going on two months later since you posted it. Perhaps though, I can share with you what I have learned and you can take what you need and leave the rest.
First of all, God will never give you more than you can handle, a very popular statement....but I will add ...and you will only get from God that which you are only open to receive.
I say that, because it builds a foundation of understanding, that God is in control...but not of your free will. It is our free will that can handicap our perception of what God's will for our lives are. Because God loves us so much, He gives us the opportunity to WANT to freely choose to do His will. Learning God's will for our life, is helped by coming to know God better. We can never claim we know God enough. Therefore, maybe getting to know God could be priority number one for you right now.
Which brings me to this part....how can we love a person, place or thing about which we know little or nothing about? Setting priority number one of knowing God will increase your capacity to love Him, and knowing Him better will aid you in loving God better. Finally, when we love a person, or an idea, or a place, or a goal, - is it not in our heart to serve that which we love? Here is where the answer to your status of "Waiting" is. First we must come to admit that we can possibly never know everything there is about an infinite God - and then make knowing God top priority. Next we come to love God more by striving to know of His goodness and mercies. It is then that we love Him so much that we feel compelled to lay down our life for Him - as our Brother Jesus did....and in taking up our cross, we follow Him.
You may or may not be thinking, how can I possibly serve God? While I was in a detox center back in 07, I thought the same thing. I felt unworthy and the reality of being an alcoholic was so raw and fresh in my mind, I wondered how I could ever be the child of God that I was created to be. Therefore I deduced that life experiences can be harsh - but ultimately everything happens because the will of God allows it to happen. In other words, "everything happens for a reason." Keeping in mind that God doesn't CAUSE evil things, sicknesses, or death to happen - He will allow them to take place in our life as experiences to be learned from. This in itself is where we grow - because in striving to overcome the difficulties we have been through, we grow holistically as a human being - in body, mind, and spirit.
It is the collective of life experiences and what we have been allowed to go through by God, that can sometimes aid us in what it is we are to do next....to serve not only God - but to serve others. Christ said when asked by a pharisee what the greatest commandment was, "To love the Lord your God with your whole heart, mind, and strength. And the next one is like it - to love your neighbor as yourself."
In following this greatest commandment - we find that serving others out of love for God is not really an option at all...but an unrealized truth in discovering what God's will for our life is.
To summarize - know God more, love God better, and as a first step in serving God - share with others how you have overcome any life struggles that are similar to theirs. Sharing your strength and hope with them, is loving your God by loving His children....because ultimately, and primitively, we are all brothers and sisters - with God as our Father. This life is a journey to our true Home and never needs to be walked alone.
I hope this helps....
God bless you and keep you,
luke1_28
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