'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
Today would have been my 4 year anniversary with my ex-husband. This is my first anniversary since the divorce. I won't lie. This week has been difficult. Valentine's Day on Friday, my birthday on Monday, and today. Yesterday, I spent the afternoon in a weepy state. When I got to my Divorce Care Support Group, everyone assumed I had a cold because my nose was so red from being wiped so much. Quite attractive. But I wasn't there to be pretty. I was there because I needed to be. I have to say that doing the Divorce Care Support Group again has been a really good decision. God is really using it to heal me, even more so than when I first went through the 13 week series. I don't think I will go again, but I really needed to go this time even though I didn't think I did. The people have been so compassionate and understanding. I like to think I've made some lifelong friends who understand what it means to go through a divorce. Our society is so casual about it, but there is nothing casual about divorce.
Of course, I also have to admit that I have so many other irons in the fire right now that I'm feeling somewhat overwhelmed. It's a bad habit of mine to have too many things going at once. But I am learning not to pile on so much. And I'm learning to juggle, but really tackle one thing at a time. Most things just need prioritzing. I'll get there. God is with me as He is with all His children. And I need Him more now than ever.
