Wake Up Call

I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called. Ephesians 4:1 NKJV

Yesterday, I woke up and thought, "What am I doing? Do I believe in God or not? And if I do, can I continue to ignore God's commands about how to live my life?" I have been pretending that I can be a child of God, but then ignore Him and His commands when it's not convenient or I just don't feel like listening. I simply cannot continue this way. I won't allow guilt and remorse to consume or cripple me. instead, I'll face forward and only look back to be grateful for the way God has saved me. If my feet are dragging in mud, it's because I put them there. Jesus saved me, but I'm wasting this precious gift. Wasting it. And it's because I've been relying on my own strength and not His. But each day is also a gift, a chance to turn around and head the right direction. Every breath reaffirms my ability to change with God's help.

Coffee

If you're going to be able to look back on something and laugh about it, you might as well laugh about it now. --Marie Osmond

I have to admit that lately I've let so many little and big things get to me and tear me down. But sometimes, I think I just get too tired to fend them off. I get so busy I forget to take time for myself and repower my batteries. When I manage to take time to do this, I look back and think, "Why was I so worried about these things?" That's how I feel today. I had a nice weekend hanging out on a Military Sealift Command ship with my ex-husband (we're not getting back together). Just not being at work or even around the internet helped me refocus on what is important in life. It helped me to remember to appreciate my friends and family. I have a really great support network for which I am truly grateful. In the last 13 months, I have lost over 150 pounds. I found a nice place to live with my roommate. I love my pets. NCIS is on almost every night. And new Diner Dash-like games come out all the time. I have so much for which to be joyful. Why do I ever let the little things drag me down?