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Wow. It's been a long time. I will try to update this week. Sorry, everyone!

Love Stinks

If love is the answer, could you rephrase the question? -- Lily Tomlin

Well, well, it's about that time again. Time for me to whine and moan about romance. I do this just every so often. I had stopped for a while when I was married, but since the divorce, I find myself falling back into the routine. Meet someone (or a couple of someones), spend time with them, get excited about the possibility, get rejected or learn something unwanted, get mad at the world. This is how I operate. I would say it's working for me, but..ahem...maybe not. I suppose it's just life, and there's no reason to be mad at the world. Just the same, although I had been excited about the prospect of dating again, I think I'm going to take a break. I've just been dating for a few weeks, but once you get a couple of guys in the mix, well, it just gets exhausting. Who likes what? Who works where? Who's not a serial killer? I mean, who can remember all this stuff? Some days I look at myself in the mirror and struggle to remember my name.

Anyway, the living history at Kings Mountain was fantastic! We watched movies in the amphitheater and had popcorn in our helmets before camping out in tents only to rise early and greet the public. I was fortunate enough to actually be able to speak to a couple of WWII vets, and it made the whole thing worthwhile! Come see my guys at the Charlotte Museum of History this Saturday from 10 - 5.

Long Time, No Speak

I have been looking for a smart, relevant quote for today's blog, but it was taking too long, and I need to get to work. Sorry, readers, you're missing out on a quote today. You'll probably forgive me. I hope so anyway.

My life has been a whirlwind lately. I have been out of town for the last two weekends and will be out of town next weekend as well. I have enjoyed the last two weekends as they were family related, but I am looking forward to next weekend...Kings Mountain - Military through History! My WWII re-enacting group will be heading there to participate. They said this was a great event last year, and I am looking forward to being involved this year. If you can make it out there, by all means, go! It should be great. There will be quality re-enactors from several time periods. And, of course, moi!

I will have more to post this afternoon, but for now, I just wanted to put a little plug out there for me and my boys. :-)

Swine Flu and more!

I don't really have much to say about the swine flu (H1 N1 or whatever). I just wanted to hop on the hype bandwagon. SWINE FLU?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There. Now I can be considered part of the media.

On a more serious note, I've been trying to do less thinking lately and more living based on instinct and gut. What have I learned? Well, I might overthink things, but that's probably better than the not thinking at all decision. I don't feel like myself to fly by the seat of my pants and never think anything through. I mean, yes, I have been known to make spontaneous decisions, but then I think and think and think about it afterwards - usually in an effort to clean up whatever mess I made. Haha! I'm not a kid anymore, but I'm also not a senior citizen reflecting on a long life well lived. I have a lot to do and accomplish, and I just want to make the most of the time I have. My most frequent prayer lately is for wisdom to know God's will and to simply have more wisdom in general. I know to err is human, but do I have to make so MANY mistakes?

So Long, Bea Arthur...

I'm so sorry to hear about her death. She seemed like a fine lady. And I am still a devout Golden Girls fan. Watching it in bed right now. Sexy, right? Left work sick today. Hoping it's not Swine Flu. Having lots of sinus issues this spring. More than ever. I wonder why. Oh well. This is probably pretty rambly. I hate feeling sick. I hate dating too. It's nerveracking. It feels like this crazy guessing game. No one ever says what they really mean. Not to mention it's easy to get your own feelings and emotions all mixed up and twisted around. Which might be why it's hard to gauge what other people are thinking because maybe they're as mixed up as well. Dating when you're young and single is difficult. Dating when your older and divorced is crappy. But I still want romance and the chance to meet someone who can be special. I guess this is what everyone has to go through to meet the right person. Maybe? I don't know. Honestly, I didn't do a lot of dating prior to my marriage and frankly, I have a lot more options since I've lost so much weight. It's not right, but it's reality. I feel like I'm drifting in completely uncharted territory. And I get lots of advice (conflicting, I might add). Hrmmm... It's the illness. Just one of those days. When I feel better, everything will be rosy again.

Rudy

Rudy was on last night. I caught part of it. Still one of my all time favorite movies. And it IS my favorite sports movie though it's really more about overcoming the odds and following a dream. I love Rudy because he's such an underdog, and in true American fashion, I almost always cheer the underdog. That's because I identify with them - the underdogs, that is. I believe most of us are underestimated. Maybe we underestimate ourselves, but the capacity for great things is probably there, and we just don't tap into it. I especially believe this as a Christian, not because I believe in my strength or goodness, but I believe in God's strength and goodness. And God can work through all of us if we let Him. More is possible in this life than we like to allow ourselves to believe.

On a side note, the real Rudy spoke at my high school when the movie came out. And his speech made me feel like I could accomplish anything, and I mean ANYTHING. It was fantastic. If you still haven't seen this movie, buy it.

Move Along, Move Along, Like I Know You Do

Lyrics from a song I've heard recently. The title has nothing to do with anything.

Last night, I came home from work in a melancholy mood. I just felt blah and depressed. I couldn't even tell you why. The dreary rain probably didn't help. So my roommate and I decided to go out and do something. We went to Panera bread at Sandhills and had supper. Then we walked in the mist to the Books-A-Million. We went our separate ways almost immediately to browse for a while. I LOVE magazines. I really do. I love books too, but I have a strange connection with magazines. I think it's my short attention span. Anyway, I found myself moping along the back wall of magazines and thinking about how many magazines there are for all different types of people. I looked at the people walking around the magazines. A dad pushing a stroller of a sleeping baby, a sports junkie, a middle-aged woman scouring the home improvement mags... I thought about how dowdy I must look. Jeans, blue and white button up shirt, gray sweater, and a baseball cap - I looked like a bag lady. And I wonder why I don't meet more people. I think I have body issues, but I might be scaring people off subconsciously with my homeless person attire. I have to think about that. Anyway, it was a nice evening of book/magazine browsing and people watching. Usually this would be where I insert my deep thought about this event, but today, I want to just be. No deep thoughts. I've been thinking WAY too much lately.