Saturday, April 26, 2008

Savannah, GA - April 26, 2008


Well, here we are in Savannah, Georgia for my older sister's 40th birthday trip. I am here with my mother and sister. I had never been to Savannah so I was really looking forward to seeing this world-famous city. And I was not disappointed. I must say, though, our journey has had some bumps. The first bump came with my Mapquest-printed directions. While the directions were easy to follow, I had gotten directions to the Hilton Garden Inn in Historic Downtown Savannah instead of the location where I actually booked the room. My sister and mom were really good sports about it. My confirmation print out for the room even had the correct directions if I had looked closer at them. The next bump came this morning when we got to a late start and went to the Waffle House two doors down from the hotel. We waited and waited and waited - all very hungry. Finally, we just got up and left. Anyone who knows me should realize how big of a deal this is. I very rarely leave a restaurant like that. We drove another half an hour before finding a restaurant outside of the historic district on 21 called Sunny Side Up. We had never heard of it, but decided to give it a try. It was very simple, but VERY good. After that, we headed to the historic district. It was very beautiful, crowded, and full of traffic. Trying to drive and sight see was impossible. We found the visitor's center which was a home for several trolley tour companies. We quickly purchased On/Off Tickets to a trolley tour with Old Savannah Tours. That was the best investment made today. The tour bypassed our expectations. We were allowed to get off the trolley at any of 14 stops in the city and reboard at any of the same spots. We rode the entire tour and got off on stop 14 - at the riverfront. We walked down some horrendously steep stairs and then found a small restaurant/pub to get a drink. After resting and rehydrating, we walked along the waterfront to stop 11. This took about an hour and a half and every minute was worth it. It would take more than a week to really sample all of Savannah's treasures. We only tasted a little, but what we had made an everlasting impression on me. And the time spent with my sister and mother has reminded me how much I love them and love spending time with them. I hope my sister has enjoyed her trip and knows how much I love her.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Wisdom?

Those who are wise will shine like the brightness of the heavens, and those who lead many to righteousness, like the stars for ever and ever. -Daniel 12:3 NIV


Sometimes I pray to God to make me wise. I don't pray for patience because I know the way God makes us patient is by allow us to weather trials. Evidently, God has been working on my patience anyway, so I don't need to ask. But I truly covet wisdom. Ever feel like you look back on your life and can see so many mistakes? And you think, "Why did I think that was a good decision?" It is when I think that way that I ask God to give me wisdom in decisions now. I sometimes feel like I can't afford making any more mistakes in my life, then God reminds me to be prepared for mistakes instead of letting them defeat me. I am a finite, flawed human being, and I will make mistakes. But I shouldn't allow those mistakes to keep me from being an effective person or Christian. I can recover because God gives me the strength to do so. My life has been so twisted away from what God must have had planned for me, but He reminds me that He can make all things new. The past is over, but today is here. I have to face today with God's hope so my life can be made new, and others will see it in me.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Sons of Valor III in Dalzell, SC

Last weekend, I had the privilege of participating in a WWII tactical re-enactment with my WWII re-enacting group and other groups from the tri-state area. The event was called Sons of Valor III and was supposed to take place in the European Theatre late in the war, around 1945. I signed up to participate with the knowledge that in WWII women were not at the front. Nurses were close, but not too close, and women war correspondents were extremely limited as to where they could go as well. But I wanted to participate and support the guys from my group so I signed up and presented myself. My intention had been to portray a war correspondent, but one of the leaders of our group suggested I do a nurse impression because he had the gear for it. He also said he thought I would be able to get closer to the front at an aid station. Therefore, I agreed to the switch. On Saturday morning, the same leader advised me that our group was going to relieve the engineers who had been out all night at 7:00 AM. I could not join them, and he wasn't sure of the aid station so he suggested I make my way to the Command Post (CP) at 8:00 AM and let them know I was a nurse. So I did. Only problem? There was no aid station and since the fighting had already started, the commanders were very busy. They noticed I was there, but I did not have an opportunity to interrupt and ask what I should be doing. I watched them brief groups of troops and then abruptly jump in a jeep and drive away. I sat with a clerk and a some other CP support troops for a while. I had just about made up my mind to walk back to camp when an MP showed up and told us all to hurry up and move. The CP had to be moved to a new location immediately. As they loaded up, he looked at me and said, "Are you riding with us or him (the clerk)?" Stumped, but not wanting to hold anyone up, I just said, "Him," and jumped into the jeep (no small feet for my bulk).

We drove into the woods on a dirt path and ended up close to the fighting. I could hear the guns and watched as more troops came through the new CP location. For a couple of hours, I stood around watching and recording the commanders and troops at the CP. No one said anything to me, and I was really aware that I was probably somewhere I should not have been so I didn't want to draw attention to myself and get sent back. This was so much closer to the action than I had expected that I wanted to enjoy it as long as possible.

After a few hours of this, all the troops had been deployed and all the commanders except for one had moved forward. The head guy (hey, still learning my ranks and whatnot) came to the three of us left - me, the clerk, and the other jeep driver. He let us know he was moving forward and noted that since we did not have weapons, we should wait in this position until he sent a runner to move us forward. We did as we were told and eventually were told to load the jeeps and move to another position. There, we did more standing around and waiting. I have to admit, the most exciting part of my morning so far had been riding in the jeep which was a welcome relief for my tired legs, aching from standing around in ill-fitting WWII combat boots for so long. I felt bad because I knew my guys were out hoofin' it across the combat zone, but they are all in MUCH better shape than me. My legs were already so weak I was staggering.

At the new position, we all ate our rations (granola bars for me) and waited for something to happen. Troops wandered randomly to our position to get water from the water jug. Then they wandered back to their fighting positions. Honestly, at this point, I was beginning to wish I had waited back at camp after all. Standing around waiting in the rear makes for a long day. But I stuck it out. At one point, at this position, I looked around, and my ride was gone. I felt a little panicked. I didn't even know where I was to get back. But a group of soldiers remained at this position so I hoped someone would come back or I would just link up with them. Just when I had about made that decision, the jeep driver showed up and told me to come with him.

We ended up back at the 2nd position again, but not for long. My group and the Brits were there so I finally got some video and pics of my guys. Yay! Then we were off again. This time, we made our way to where a wooden bridge had been constructed over a ditch. We rode the vehicles over and started to drive through combat zones. We were being fired on the entire time. At one point, our convoy stopped in the open, and we all had to jump out and take cover. My weak legs gave out at this point, and I fell into the bushes I had been squatting next to. The video posted below is from that point. The jeep driver loaded back up and left me in the bushes (an oversight, I am choosing to believe). I looked down the road and the Allied commander was waving for me to catch up. I ran down the road and loaded back into the jeep. We traversed some of the worst, washed out dirt roads I have ever seen, and those jeeps just plowed right through. Remember, these are vintage, restored WWII period jeeps, not repros. They were very impressive. At one point we stopped, and a lone German pulled his empty pistol and shouted for us to surrender in German. Of course, our troops just unloaded blanks on him. But we revived him and made him a POW, adding him to our caravan. He laughed and admitted he had been separated from his unit and wanted a ride. The troops took off into the woods to find his unit and left us (jeep drivers, MP, and nurse) back on the road. About twenty minutes later, a group of Germans sneaked up on us and shot those of us left including our German POW. He laughed and said he had been just fine until he hooked up with us, and now he had been killed twice. The Germans left with the POW, and we continued to wait for word.

That's when we heard the half track coming up behind us. We gathered our grenades and took cover in the woods to surprise them. But it never showed up. Finally, our MP rode forward on his motorcycle to see what was happening. He returned to advise the war was over and everyone was heading back to camp. We headed back as well. Once there, the skies opened up. My unit had not brought a regular tent, we only had our individual pup tents so we all packed up and went home. I was disappointed to miss out on the barbecue dinner and AAR, but the rain was cold and miserable. Still, I had the time of my life and was quite aware that I had been a part of something very rare to get so close to the fight that I was shot by Germans. I felt very honored and exhilarated! I went home on a wet, cold, sore cloud. At home, I told my roommate about some of my experiences, ate supper, then I went to bed and did not get up until the next day. All's well that ends well!

Clip from WWII Tactical Re-enactment

Monday, March 17, 2008

Trip

When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot - but I always found them. -Rodney Dangerfield


Last weekend, I drove to North Myrtle Beach with my friend, T, to see my mother, stepfather, and younger siblings. I had not been to North Myrtle Beach since Thanksgiving of 2007 so it had been a while since I had seen them. T and I got up early and met them at the North Myrtle Beach St. Patrick's Day Parade (YouTube video to be added soon). We really had a good time. The parade there is VERY family friendly and all the participants throw green beads or candy for the most part. My little brother racked up on candy and even though he is sixteen, he wolfed it down and couldn't eat supper. Pretty funny, really. He and I also spent some time bonding over a PlayStation 2 game called Return to Castle Wolfenstein: Operation Resurrection. Video games are an area in which my younger siblings and I have always connected. When I was a kid, I had a Nintendo (Not a Nintendo 64 or any of that mess, just a plain old Nintendo). That was probably the beginning of the end for me. I have been addicted to games ever since. I have gone through a couple of consoles, but mostly play games on my computer now. When the younger siblings and I would play games, my years of console playing would always show and I would pretty much whoop up on any game they were trying to defeat. But Saturday night, I realized the controls for the PS2 are quite different, and I had a really difficult time aiming. My younger brother looked perplexed as he watched me. Finally, I said, "It's weird to watch me struggle so much with a game, isn't it?" He admitted that it was. I explained how different the controls were to what I had been used to in the past. He nodded, and we continued playing. It made me think, though, about how we get these ideals in our heads for people we know especially when we are young. We put them on certain pedestals and expect them to stay there forever, but with age and maturity, we learn those standards are impossible. And the people we might have idolized when we were young are still just human beings. I hope that seeing that made my little brother think of me in a different way. Our age difference has always made our relationship non-traditional for siblings anyway. Maybe seeing me struggle with the controller will remind him, however, that I am a fallible sister and not a gaming goddess. Anyone I've ever playing Enemy Territory online with could already testify to that. :-)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

The Odyssey of the Wondrous Sleep Machine

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you will land among the stars. -Les Brown


Since being diagnosed with sleep apnea, I have been put on an APAP machine to wear at night. It works like a CPAP only its airflow is low until the person wearing it stops breathing and then it increases to compensate. I have struggled with it the last week. It takes some getting used to, but I can tell a difference already. I got up on time this morning and not only had time to take my morning shower and get dress (which is usually all I have time for), I was able to do my hair and makeup and have a little time to post this. What a wonder! Isn't God good? If I had not prayed about the gastric bypass and decided to pursue it, I would probably not have been tested for apnea and not have started using the APAP. God's blessings are overwhelming, and I see Him so at work in my life. I am so thankful.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Restructuring My Head

Change your thoughts and you change your world. -Norman Vincent Peale


Yesterday I saw the counselor in charge of my prescreening exam for the gastric bypass surgery. I really liked her, and left her office encouraged. While she gave me the thumbs up for the surgery, she also gave me some advice. Some of the advice I already knew, but I have not been applying it to myself. I mentioned how difficult it is going to be for me to give up my southern sweet tea (it's like crack), and she stopped me almost mid-sentence. "If you tell yourself that, it will be hard, but you can convince yourself this is no big thing." I remember when Dr. Phil first came on the scene, and he talked about having tapes running in your head. The idea made sense to me. If you are constantly telling yourself you are worthless, you will believe it. So if I keep running this tape in my head that says, "Giving up ____ will be hard," then it will be. But if I keep telling myself that the item is just a thing I can take or leave, I will have control over the thing instead of the thing having control over me. Isn't this kind of what faith is about? God says believe, and it shall be. Mind you, that is not a direct quote, but you know what I mean. God tells us to ask for what we want and have faith. He doesn't say ask for what you want and then think about how it won't really happen. God is a wonderful, loving Father who wants to share His gifts with us. So I need to change the tapes in my head and put my faith in God.